Self Control

I'll love you forever,
I guess its all my fault
because I can never give you what you want,
What you want is me
We decided this was the best thing
The best thing for you and me

You lay beside me
I try I try
To resist the urge
the Urge to kiss you
to pull you're shirt off and continue
I tried to make it just an Innocent hug
One that we could pull apart easily
and it just be a hug

I scream in my head
God please help the thoughts
Satan get away and don't make me think like this
Stop convincing my mind that I need this
God tell him to stop
He's not making this very easy...



I always warned you
about not wearing clothes around me
It always makes me so tempted...
its easy for me to fall back
into what we once where
and we both know that can never be

You nipple lies lies right in my view
I want to put my lips on it
I really do...

I know you can feel me
going closer
breathing harder
fighting with God and Satan
trying to resist the urge
and daring myself to do it...

I kiss your sides slowly,
Bite you out of frustration

You move,
its time to get up you say,
I lay there, silent
and without words
I thank god I didn't do it
and Apologize for even thinking of doing it

You say no licking my nipples
cause you know you want to
I'm positive
You wanted me to do it too

But you're right...
You always had more
Self control...